It might of been better when we were segregated.

I have no idea how life was during segregation or how it felt to be black back then, but segregation lead to blacks striving for better, not this bullshit that I see now. Our leaders were Malcolm X, Dr Martin Luther King, and the likes of Marcus Garvey and Rosa Parks. Nowadays with the exclusion of Barrack Obama where are the black leaders? We now have 2 Chains, the cast of Love and Hip Hop and Nikki Minaj. We have to look up to entertainers not people who actually had a cause or a movement or an idea. It seems to me that the ratio of positive blacks and negative blacks have changed from segregation to our present day. We had goals in the past, goals of equality that all shrived for. Today, what the hell we striving for? The government allows us to vegetate our lives away with a sub par livelihood; food stamps and public housing is just enough to etch out a life. When you want something you can't have, you fight to attain it. I believe that in the past there were more dreamers, wishers of a better life, dreamers of equality, a goal. As a people, we don't have a goals today. Segregation is just a word and today it still is. If the greater good can be achieved by hard work and dedication but a bovine existence can be achieved by just existing, the weak minded would choose the later.
We had a goal to untie us, we had a goal to reach for, now the safety net of government assistance is the segregation and is actually a safety web that hinders us from moving more of us to the top. We have become a side show, entertainment. We have to strive to be a basketball player or rapper to make it and the odds of succeeding in that is very low. Remember only the best can succeed in the world of talent and the word "best" in a finite one, there is not a lot of room at the top. In the past we had to fight to be an equal lawyer, and equal doctor, to teach whites, to do something that anyone could do with drive and determination. But now we wish to use our talents to entertain or just be stuck in the web of assistance. Ask yourself this question, what would Martin Luther King think about our generation? Did we work so hard to become a successful side show? Back then we dressed for success, we wanted to look like our counterparts. But now we dress like animals and you know what the say

"Clothes make the man" or woman. All in all I think our people of the past were more determine people because they had a carrot go reach for, now we have nothing to reach for because we are being held already.

I have discovered the meaning of life while watching a Clipper Game

While the Clippers we playing the Thunder on May 11th 2014 in the NBA playoffs, for the most part of the the game the Thunder dominated the Clippers.  During the game the Thunder was just solid and the Clippers had to come back on large scoring runs to catch up.  The Clippers were down at least 22 points in the game and remarkably came back and won by 2 points.  I ask myself a couple of questions.

First, if the Clippers can score in bunches and come back to win means during the game they were playing slack, not up to their full potential. Their full potential was them scoring a bunch of points to make a comeback, now that's the best of the Clippers.  If the Clippers could play like that the entire game they would be hands down better than the Thunder.  So even if they lose that game they are actually better than the Thunder because they are not playing to their potential.  Makes sense?

Secondly,  what made the Thunder a good team was that they were solid in that game.  They didn't have to make a comeback, they were just so solid.  The Thunder was playing at their potential, they had no second gear, no drop off, just solid.  Which to me made them not as good as the Clippers because if the Clippers played to their potential as they show time to time in the game they would dominate the Thunder in small portions of the game.  Now if they played like that all the time, they definitely were better than the Thunder. As the end of the score showed, that night they were better.

We don't live in a vacuum...

If found out that those statements above can not possible be true, because for the Clippers to make a comeback then the Thunder can not be a solid team.  For the Clippers to be a comeback team then they would have to score more points in a section of the game than the Thunder, thus making the Thunder "not solid".  Also the inverse must be correct too; for the Thunder to be a solid team then they can not let any other team comeback.  These two statements can not exist together in the same game: The Clippers are a comeback team and the Thunder is a solid team.

Which also means that with every great success, there must be great struggle.  With highs, they are lows, the universe is a great balance, even in sports.  If the total value of universe is 10 then when two things collide the total sum must equal 10, so if something is a 2 then the opposite force must be an 8 or 5 versus 5 and so on. In the universe there will never be a time when something happens and going by the total sum of 10 theory that one action will be a 4 and the other action will be a 9.  These are just numbers so let me put it in real life situation.

I sit my fat ass in a sofa, while sitting down I put 270 lbs of pressure on the sofa in turn the sofa has a 270 lbs imprint on it of my fat ass with depth and width and length.  I did something and so did the sofa.  Makes sense?

Now what about Sportscenter on ESPN?

There are people on ESPN that debate sports.  But why? Why should we debate sports because the outcome always does two things, has one winner and one loser.  When the Miami Heat goes on a 23 game winning streak than some team must be going on a losing streak somewhere.  The total sum of the universe is 10 and if the Heat's universal score is 7 in the NBA then some team is a 2 and the rest are running on a total of 1.  There will always be up's if there are down's or everything will be equal and there is no fun in that and no one will be a fan of an equal sport, thus that support will never exist.  So when these people debate, they debate over actually the same thing over and over, its just that the participants different.

So what the hell does this have to do with the meaning of life... 

If you are following me this long, I thank you.  Now to handle the thesis.  Life is a nature of balance, if my boss gives me a $20 paycheck he has to lose $20 and if I work $20 worth he must make $20, if he doesn't then he will lose money and eventual not employ me or someone else will not be receiving the $20 either in money or deeds.  If the universe is a sum of 10, and life is universe than everything that's in it also must a theoretical sum of 10.  Let's say that in the whole world the total amount of money is $1,000,000 and one person has $500,000 then the rest of the people must have $500,000 between them.  So if that one person earns an additional $100,000 then some people will lose in total of $100,000.  Hence if someone gets rich then some will become poor.  People might say well then just print more money, but the value of the money will be devalued because of inflation, which still falls under the sum of 10.  $500,000 will not be worth $500,000 it will be worth less.  So if our lives are governed by the sum of 10 then we have no real free will, we are a causality of math and science.  If I make it in the world and become rich and famous then mathematically someone will have to fall or not make it.  If there was only you and I left on this planet and if get ahead then you must blunder.  Why, because for us to understand what great pleasure is we must understand great pain.  For me to know that I "made it", I must also understand what "not making it" means. We are stuck in mathematics and science, there are no matrix Neo anomaly, even in that movie it had to end with both Neo and Mr. Smith both dying to complete the balance.  The universe has a built in formula "for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction." Which also means when you and I do something there is a predetermine action that will follow.  We are "free" to do something but the reaction is uncontrollable and predetermined.

So do you think you really have free will? 

You might think you can do what you want and be who you want to be, but I do not believe that is true. Today I drunk a bottle of water, but it was not by free will.  Someone had to gather that water, then bottle it and sell it to the local store for me to buy it and then drink it.  If one of those variables are missing then I can not have the "free will" to drink the water.  My future was predetermined by the steps in my past.  Right now I'm scratching a piece of tape on my table, but someone had to build this table, then sell it and some dumbass had to put a piece of tape on this table to me scratch it, likewise if one of those variables were missing, even the dumbass I wouldn't be able to scratch or use my "free will".  So my choices are built from the decisions that were agreed on in the past and so where those decisions and so on and so on.  I am only free to do something because someone else did something to put me in the place to do so.  So am I really free?

The Meaning of life...

We are here of only one purpose... to be an equation of the universal math problem of the sum of 10.  Some Being out there created a perfect picture and your life was needed for this equation.  The Sum of 10.  For plants to exist they need Carbon Dioxide that we produce and we need Oxygen which they produce, the sum of 10.  Humans misuses the planet and planet gets destroyed, the sum of 10.  Do you think you are free?  Your mind was created with the concept of free will so you can have the fortitude to go on everyday so you can complete the balance, otherwise you wouldn't really want to do anything and that fortitude and work also has a equal reaction somewhere else. Virus destroy things, wipe things out.  I believe that our purpose is to destroy the earth, we are the only beings on this earth that has no check to it, we are the only being on this planet that doesn't fit.  We suck up all the natural resources and don't replace it, a virus.  We were put here by science, nature or by God as a virus.

Take a look around

If you take a look around this earth what is the balance of a human? The grass has a Zebra and the Zebra has a Lion and the Lion has its reproduction restraints.  Just because an apex predator has no rival, that doesn't mean science didn't but a "check" on them or they will mass produce and eat all their natural resources, like humans do.  Humans have zero check on this planet, none.  But if the Sum of 10 is true some where in this universe has a check for mankind.

To "Sum" it up...

We are here to be just a part of an equation in the Sum of 10, a virus to destroy the earth.  We really do not have any real free will, because our future actions were already determined based on the actions of our past. I am writing this blog because someone invented the electricity and then someone invented the computer and then someone invented the internet.  If any of those pieces to the puzzle didn't exist, then I would be doing something other than this, which also will be controlled by the Sum of 10.  I think I'm in control, therefor I am.  Mankind's purpose, your purpose is to be a good little part of a mass universal equation, and if you don't based on the Sum of 10 someone will.

The day started off wrong, there was hair in my Taco Bell

So I sent someone out to get my some early morning Taco Bell, because there is nothing like first meal. When the wonderful taco salad came back and I began to devour it, I found a long piece of hair in my mouth.  Last I remembered I cut my hair a couple of days ago and my hair was never that long in the first place.  I soon realized that it wasn't my hair.  I began to gag into a trash can and I sent the food back.  After a few minutes the food came back with no hair in it extra meat and with a side of cinnamon twist.  Now was I wrong to eat the second taco salad with no worries? Would you have?  Now would like look like a fool to not it the second helping and then not warn everybody at that local taco bell not to eat from the hair dropping restaurant.  Maybe I was just mistaken and today was Hair Friday's; you really cant keep with all the specials at Taco Bell anyway.  As I type I am sipping on sweet Kahlua trying to lush my Friday away. Now that nastiness of the fallen hair has erased my mind and I'm back focus on trying to make this lil cellphone store as profitable as possible today.

I gave her the speech this morning.

I have an employee that always tries to hit the "homerun" with every sale.  But I don't think she understands that a game is won by doing the little things and swinging for the fence most likely will result in more strikeouts than homeruns.  I hope you can follow the baseball references while referring to sales in a cellphone store...

Wow

Just as we spoke about not swinging for the fences she just ask me if I can give a customer a lower price and I did.  She just made it to first base.  I'm proud of her.  Hopefully she listens and follows my advice.  That little more just put a smile on my face.  Now maybe the day that started off wrong will actually turn out good for the remainder of it.

In the beginning...

Well it's not the beginning, it's just the start of my blog.  Sometimes in life you find positive people but most of the time you are surrounded by the opposite.  If you actually think about it most everyone is for "self", so why in the world would someone be totally for your growth.  We are looking for the wrong things in people, people are just like you and their main concern is "them".  A person's self interest will always trump the well being of another and if you find those few selfless people, you better hold on to them.  Last week I lost a person that I thought was for my goals of growth, but I have found out that the momentary feeling of bliss overshadowed the bigger picture.  All I can hear in the back of my head is her sigh, "I don't' care", but I do.  I'm rambling... I have not lost focus because of the situation, I just lost navigation, and it might seem like a small flaw but navigation can be the difference between life and death; just ask Christopher Columbus.  I will find my buoyancy soon but I must first find out one question.  Is it better to be everything to a few, or a little bit to everybody, or nothing to all?  I will to sit down and think about this for a little while so I can get Garmin back together again.

John Nash

One of the purposes of this blog is to help me not lose my expression. Everyday I am surrounded by stupidity and foul foundations.  Most of the time it's because of my creation other times it is just the nature around me.  I believe day by day I lose 0.001 IQ points and need to stimulate the 5% of brain that I use, so I think that this blog will help.  Are we all zombies to media and am I contributing to the downfall? Most likely the answer to both questions are yes.  But this is my way of balance, you have to find our own. Through life I have struggled on different question on how to live life. Should I be selfish or should I blindly help as much as people as possible? John Nash but this question to task using mathematics and says that doing both has the best results.  Let me tell you what I did today:

• I paid  $285 in salaries
• I paid  $215 in commissions
• I loaned a perfect stranger $30
• I gave a guy at the gas station $1.00 because he washed my windsheild

I could of most likely kept all that but my business' help other people make money.  Some days my payout is more than I take in personally, but it helps people live.  Maybe I'm following John Nash's theory and hopefully my life will garner the best results.